It’s International Women’s Day today. And even though I am a privileged one of the clan who doesn’t require the support that this day is supposed to provide, I cannot help but wonder if I am really happy to be a woman? Sadly I have to say no, I am not! And here are top of my mind reasons why.
The best thing about being a woman - shopping, dressing up, attention. All three are pretty much non-existent in my life. My weight has been a reason for concern and it doesn't feel good when somewhere I know, its all going downhill from here (at least figure wise)! A woman's body, her mind everything is so screwed up. It is made in a way to tolerate the innumerable poundings that are supposed to come in her life. While the creator managed to give her the strength to live it through all, today I wish He had given us some healing power too, so as to get back to the awesome physical state that we can be only be in for 5-7 years! And you see, when the core is so damn screwed up, its hard to imagine how one can enjoy the aforementioned best things that can happen to a woman!
I see movie stars being badgered online everyday for their figures. And think of it, these women are in the profession where they get paid for looking good. But even with all the resources they have at their disposal, not everyone can manage that hour glass figure, the toned arms and flat abs or the perfect clothes. Needless to say, I am losing hope on getting things on track!
Of course, the creator used his creativity to give another specific trait to us - the J feeling. We see anyone pretty or young or wearing a nice dress this burning sensation takes over all our senses. It blinds us and we feel so helpless because we cannot be the person/ get the thing we see. It is the most inexplicable feeling in us, there's anger, helplessness, irritation , tears all in there without any sight of a way out!
And to top it all, there is a world full of mean people, who do not think twice before using words like meh, fat, auntyish, behenji, bhadromahila etc to name a few. Though this one takes the cake 'another 5-10 years and no one will be interested in your figure'. Seriously, only figure? In another decade no one would be bothered to ask about me, leave alone my figure. Unless of course I completely neglect home and work 18 hours a day and then people would be glad to check out my salary package (which is a different story altogether)!
I don't know how this started. I know I am upset and this is what I usually do when things do not go the way I want them to. I seriously do not see what is so special about this day or for that matter any other day to be so happy about in being a woman? I am hating it, seriously hating it. I wish I was a man, if not anything I could have had a longer lifeline of the 'prime' in my life!